Needs a kick in the big ............

I have not only fallen off the wagon....I've now gotten ran over by it! UGH I don't know what the deal is! It's like I've forgotten everything about weight-loss. I'm eating crap.....and craving it! I want pop, pop, and more pop. If it's something I shouldn't have, I want it! I don't know what is wrong with me! Anyone who has ever tried to lose weight, knows that when you see results it's easier to keep going....but when you stop trying, it's that much harder to get going again! I need to kick myself into gear. I'm tired of looking/feeling like this.

Things in life have been pretty stressful lately, so I'm gussing the uncontrollable urge to eat is linked to that...but c'mon!! I gotta stop this! It's giving me even more weight to lose, and making me feel even worse about myself!! Something has gotta give! This is a message with one of my friends the other day, who is also wanting to drop some weight.

These are the things I think about ALL DAY LONG!!!! So how do I stop feeling sorry for myself, get out of this rut,a nd make it happen??? How do I MAKE time to do my workouts without letting the fact that I'm alone with the kids stop me? There has to be "me time" time to do the workout, and time to focus on myself. Other moms do it, this mom needs to do it. I think the amount of weight I wanna lose, it what scares the bajeesus out of me. Mama L was right today when she said that losing weight isn't just a physical battle. That's definitely the truth!!  My mind is my own worst enemie! I swear every post that girl writes, she wrote for me! So for those of you who have lost the weight....how do you keep going? Have you hit ruts where you give up? do you sometimes just wanna EAT?!?!?! Do you give in to the cravings, or find a way to steer clear? I'm so tired and frustrated with this rollercoaster! Yep....this is a big, fat, giant negative nancy post. You'll have that I guess :-/ ho hum.