Weigh-In Wednesday

I've decided I'm no longer going to let the scale control my life! I didn't even step on the scale today. I just feel blah, and I just don't wanna know!

 

 If you've read my story under my "weight-loss" tab you've already read this....so I apologize.

Anyway....When I first met my hubs, I feel like I looked good. I was confident, thin, and happy. I wasn't tiny....I was a size 12! I wore size medium, and large shirts....again not super small. But, I looked good. I don't know if it's where I carry my weight or what, but people who weigh less than me, always look heavier than me! Now I'm not saying by any means that I am happy where I am right now. I AM NOT. I've gone beyond that "I feel good" attitude. I don't feel good, and I want to be back to where I was when I met my hubs in 2005. Granted, that was before 2 babies....but still.

I'm not really in love with any certain number on the scale that I want to see. I am however, in love with clothes that I want to fit in. That was always how I judged my weight. I went by how I looked, and felt. It worked until I hit this point of no return! I think the scale is important....to know where you stand....but I'm not going to let it determine if I'm failing or succeeding anymore!

I honestly don't know my exact weight when I met my hubs. I just know the size clothes I was wearing. I probably hadn't been on the scale in a year when I first met him. I didn't really have the need to. I was content with where I was.

Excuse the goofy pose. I was 22, and an idiot. This is my point. I look thin there, or at least I think I do. Those pants are from American Eagle, size 12....the shirt is a Large. Not small sizes at all.....but I looked good! That's all I want!

Another point. Those pants I have on are a size 13...and the shirt a Large. But, again....I felt thin. I think I look thin. I'd be happy with just feeling I look good. I don't know know how much I weighed in these pics. I just didn't care. I'm guessing I need to be about 60 pounds lighter to look like this again....well now 45, I've lost roughly 15. These are my goal pictures. I have goal PICTURES, not a goal NUMBER.

That of course does not mean I'm going to stop linking up for Weigh-In Wednesday though!! I do have a goal weight that I'd like to get to before I start this whole "Go by how I feel" attitude again. First things first......the initial fatness must go. Like I said, I'm not happy where I'm at.....so to get to that point, I have no choice but to watch the scale for a while. But, I'm definitely going to stop weighing myself so often!

Lastly, if you're looking for a new blog to read, check out my new blog friend Erin at Homemade Happenings! She's almost to 100 followers!! She's currently doing a button swap, so go check her out! I'll be trying out that "Tank Top Arm" workout she posted yesterday! Warm weather will be here before you know it!! Check her out! :)