I have been feeling a little down on myself for falling off the "weight-loss wagon". I haven't been eating like I should, and I am slowly getting back into drinking pop! I'm a sucker for wild cherry pepsi! I was (am) slowly creeping back into bad habits!! This scares the heck out of me!! I don't want to go back there....I'm on my way to looking/feeling better and I don't wanna fall behind! I know it happens, I've done it many times, but this time....I thought I had this! If you read Mama Laughlins blog....you have probably read her post about the day that everything just "clicked" for her, and she was ready! I had that moment about 2 months ago. I was sick of looking and feeling the way I do now....and I knew I was the only one who could change it! It's a slow process....mainly because I have yet to start working out. (many reasons, well excuses). But, I do have plans for that! When you are unhappy with yourself, you start to become unhappy with other aspects of your life! For example....when I feel "gross" my house looks messier, my husband's crazy schedule annoys me more, I hate my clothes, I'm fed up with basically everything. I don't like when that person comes to town! I have also found in this journey that I am most definitely an emotional eater. The second I start feeling overwhelmed with something....I'm looking for the junk food! This is where I need to find another outlet. But, it's the little things that I have happiness/success in. Today, I found a picture that I had taken of myself about 2 months ago. I don't know the exact date though (dopey me, didn't date it!) But, I thought.....do I still look like that? So I took a pic today, and compaired the two, and this is what I found.....
I see a little bit of a change here!! I see some less puffy cheeks! Granted, it's been 2 months and I should probably be seeing a little more drastic results...but I'm happy. To me this shows, it's not impossible....it's the little things, that will keep me going!
Now, for the part where I failed yesterday.....It was my Mom's birthday and I had made her a cake. My parents came over last night, and I had a piece of cake.....and then later after everyone left...I had ANOTHER piece of cake! Because I was hungry? Ummm no....just because it was there!! GRR But, I think after seeing my pics today...maybe that will help me STEP AWAY FROM THE CAKE! well, that and sending that darn thing home with my parents today! :)
I will miss you cake....nope, no I won't ! GET AWAY!!
The other day, we were getting ready to go to our little festival, and I had curled my hair, and had a sweater, and jeans on. Nothing fancy....just a little different from my "daycare attire". My 3 year old, Cole....said "mommy you look handsome" Well, I hope not handsome...but I knew what he was trying to say, and it was so sweet. Like I said, it's the little things!