Non-Scale Victories #2

Linking up again today for NSV's #2!

My husband and my oldest son have gotten milkshakes twice this week, and I didn't get one either time! I wanted it....I wanted it bad!! But, I didn't get one! :)


Still doing my treadmill, but also still need to step up the pace and get a little more of a burn out of my workout.

Staying optimistic about this scale stuff. I mean this has to start working sometime right? I have been looking into new ways to start dropping the pounds! (Cleanses, new exercises, stuff like that)

My cart at the grocery store this past weekend, looked way healthier than it ever has in the past!

Although I'm still frustrated that the scale isn't really going anywhere except up and down with the same three pounds....I'm proud of myself for changing bad habits, and for trying to become healthier.
                                      
I'm not sure why the scale isn't moving....and I'll tell ya what...it is a HARD thing to deal with! I've been at this for 5 weeks now. I eat under 1280 calories a day....I drink water (not enough, I'm sure)....and the scale still isn't changing. I have never had this problem before. I will be 30 in July....and I've had 2 babies now, but I don't think these are good enough excuses! I think the Non-scale vicotories are a great thing to recognize, because it gives me the strength to keep going. There are so many thing going through my head when I'm on the treadmill. So many things I want to accomplish, and so many regrets about what I've let happen to my body. It's all hard to swallow. How did I get to the point that I need to lose about 60 pounds to get back to where I'm happy with how I look. How did I not have enough respect for myself to change it, before it got out of control? I struggle with these things on a daily basis. But I just have to keep going!
                                           
I'm thankful to have others who see the importance of motivating others to see their success in all aspects, not just a number on a scale! That is so important....for our overall sanity! haha. Hopefully next week....I'll be able to say I've dropped something beyond these 3 pounds that keep coming and going....but if I don't.....we'll keep working for the next week, right? 
Happy Thursday blog world....we've almost made it to the weekend!!! :)

Back to Reality!!

AHHHHH!!! 2 days with no blogging!! I've missed the blog world! No, I'm not joking.....I really did! I have what looks to be about 3 hours of reading blogs to catch up with! LoL!! Good thing I don't have many kiddos today! haha

 Had to take Drew to the ER at 1am on Sunday with a 104.4 fever! YIKES! Scared this mommy! He was tested for both influenza A and B....both were negative! Hallelujah....but he does have a virus, that you guessed it.....just has to run its course. Ugh. So it has been a rough 2 days! Closed my daycare on Monday....then had someone cover for me yesterday.....and now finally back to reality today. I'm a creature of habit for sure. I like routine.....and the past 2 days we have had NO ROUTINE! Drew was not sleeping at all......finally last night we all got some sleep. Much needed....and I want MORE! But, I'm so thankful he's starting to feel a little better! Hate it when my babies are sick!!! :(

Yesterday it was 60 degrees here in good ole Ohio, today it's supposed to be 50....and guess what! tomorrow, low 30's! Awesome. I just love this weather! No wonder everybody and their dog is sick!!

Since I haven't blogged in 2 days, I have a bunch of randomness to cover! Does anyone watch Dallas?? I am so obsessed! I remember after season 1, I couldn't wait until January when it came back! and guess what....It's Baaaaaack! Yessssss! Season premiere was so good! I can't wait till Monday! LoL I love me some John Ross Ewing! I'm not hatin those suits he wears to the office everyday! I definitely believe that there is in fact "something about a truck" but I'm perfectly ok with my country boy driving a corvette. It works for him!

I may need a life....but hey....it's the only show I watch these days that's NOT reality. I'm behind on all my reality shows except Teen Mom. Am I the only 29 year old who still watches teen mom? Yes? well that's ok. What's life without some good old disfunction, right?
Happy Wednesday kids! I'm excited that this is my first day of "work" and that it's already wednesday. Pretty good deal there!


BTW: I've jumped on the Keek bandwagon..... kristenporter161   I really need to learn how to put those fancy icons up! lol

What You Don't See.....

FRIDAY! Yesssssssss! I'm ready to not set the alarm....and pretend that my children won't have me up 47 times during the night!  While getting ready this morning...(.and by getting ready I mean putting my hair in a pony tail, and wearing sweats today! Because it's friday, and I. DON'T. CARE.) Anyway....I noticed how bad my hair is looking after only 3 weeks! I'm a grey mess. I've had grey hair since I was 17! Sad huh. Now I highlight it blonde again....but after we color the roots! I haven't highlighted since Dec. 7....but just did the roots a few weeks ago! So now I'm looking a hot mess! And if you don't believe me........

It's pretty sad kids! I'm lookin rough! Good thing I'm trapped working in the basement with kiddos all day! They don't judge! haha. I'm gonna need some serious TLC on that mop this weekend! Yikes!

I received the sweetest most untrue email ever yesterday! It was soooo nice....yet couldn't be further from the truth. So I thought, if this is the image I'm portraying....I need to be honest with people who are reading.  Someone actually told me in an email "You look great, you don't need to lose weight" Ohhhhh how this made me laugh. But, it also made me think! I gotta be real. I only post selfies from the neck up for a reason! So I'm just gonna lay it all out there today. This is for my reader who thought I didn't need to lose weight! I'm flattered....but you must now find out the truth! lol

 

Here is the ugly truth my friend! My biggest problem area (not the only problem area) is the middle. My gigantic stomach after 2 babies, and just eating crap, and not moving! This is what happens! Don't let it happen to you lol. Friends don't let friends, get this fat! lol. I cannot believe I'm letting the world see this...but there ya have it. I do in fact....HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT, and a lot of it.My goal to start is 60 pounds. Then we'll see how I look at that point, and decide if I need to lose more. So thank you thank you thank you for your sweet email.....but feast your eyes on that mess! In this pic I'm wearing my husbands sweat pants, and shirt. I no longer have any mid-section....it's all just a big blob. It's humiliating, sad, depressing, and a million other things all rolled into one! I'm working on changing it....but unfortunately when you let it get this bad it takes time! So this is what's hiding in the rest of the selfies, that you don't normally get to see! lol.   I hide from the camera as much as I can. I barely have any pictures with my kids....we got family pictures taken in december and I didn't buy a single one of them because I looked so awful. No one wants to feel like that. 

well....isn't this post just full of sunshine, and rainbows! On a happier note, it's friday!!!! Have a great weekend!!! :)

Non-Scale Victories Linkup

Today, I'm linking up to talk about some NSV's! "Non-scale Victories" Such a great idea! I'm frustrated with the scale, however I have changed my life a ton!



                                         




I've been on WW for the past 4 weeks, but this week I started using my fitness pal to count calroies as well. I've stayed under my daily calorie intake all week!

I've started drinking DIET Dr. Pepper. Pepsi and Wild Cherry Pepsi are my loves....but I got tired of giving up 5 pts or 150 calories for it! So I had heard Diet Dr. Pepper wasn't too bad....and it's not. So for now that fills the void of wanting pop and 0pts/calories. Score.

I've done my treadmill religiously for the past 2 weeks.....every time with both of my kids in the room...excpet once! I'm still slow, but I'm moving! I actually look forward to it now. Weird. lol

I'm now consious of everything I put in my mouth!

I'm not eating when I'm bored

I've learned that "feel good food" in fact, does NOT make you feel good

Although I still feel scared and overwhelmed with the amount I want to lose.....I don't feel as defeated about never being able to do it.

I would rather feel/look good than eat crap that is gone in 10 minutes!

I still don't enjoy the scale....it's not my favorite place to be of course.....but I no longer avoid it. I have faced a harsh reality...and have been making changes in my life. That's something. Even if the scale isn't really moving at the pace I'd like. The weight has to start coming off, right?!?! Please say yes.

I'm realizing that while yes, my main job is to be a mom.....I  have to spend some time on myself...and find that person I used to be again.

I've learned that excuses get you nowhere, except fatter lol

I've noticed little changes in my body. Ex: my wedding rings are falling off!

My arms are getting less puffu/fat

I'm learning just how important exercise is, and how good it can make you feel

When I actually do start seeing changes in that scale....I'm sure that will give me even more motivation! BRING IT!

Makeup Hoarder

I am a makeup lover to say the least! I have enough for my own cosmetics store....seriously. Most of it is OLD too. So I guess that would make me a "Makeup Hoarder"  I don't buy expensive makeup. All my stuff comes from walmart. Mainly because, I never know if I'm going to like it.  Recently, I learned that makeup expires! Was I the only one who didn't know this?!?! So this weekend, it's time to do a major clean out. I have makeup from 10 years ago or more! We're talking Mary Kate and Ashley eye shadows, and lip glosses! Don't judge!

I have finally found a mascara that I love.....Loreal Beauty Tubes....so I guess that means I can throw the other 15 tubes that I have away? (No Joke, I have at least 15 others right at this moment) and some of them are probably more than 3 years old.

 

Seriously, go buy this stuff. It rocks, and I'm very picky about mascara! Wouldn't it be cool if I got paid to say that by Loreal? LoL. A girl can dream. 

I have yet to find a foundation that I can't live without. I used to use cover girl but I feel like it makes me look like a hooker, I can't find the right color.....so I went to loreal, I bought too light and it washes me out. This stuff isn't cheap people! and you can't return it, so I have a ton that I just can't use. So I bought the cheapest NYC stuff I could find....$2.99! So that has to be good for your face right?  lol But I actually like the color. I do notice that it feels really heavy on my face after using Loreal for a while. I've recently started using a primer too. Not everyday but when we actually go places on the weekend, and I don't wanna look all "yeah I work in the basement all week-ish"

What I'm trying to get at here is....what kind of foundation do you use? I want something I can get at the drug store....I'm not all about having to order things, or go to the makeup counter at the mall for. That just doesn't work in my life. Is there a way to test colors, that I don't know about? I'm sick of wasting money on foundation that I get home to find it's too light or too dark. (most of the time too light)


I love lipstick as well. I think lipstick finishes the look! But, again I buy cheap lipstick. The stuff that comes off in 20 mins. Hate that. What lipstick do you buy? Does it last? I have tried that 24 hour stuff....I had one that worked well, but it was a little dark....and that stuff definitely stayed on 24 hours! if you messed up putting it on....better like looking like a clown for the next 24 hours because that stuff was NOT. COMING. OFF. I've played around with a few....but what is the best drug store brand to go with that will last? 

I am thinking about trying ipsy after seeing what Meredith posted the other day. That may give me a way to branch out with more expensive products that I normally wouldn't buy...and see the difference. But what if I actually like them?!?! TROUBLE.

What's your favorite foundation, and lipstick? Help!
I couldn't resist.....

Happy Hump Day!

A Few Updates

Drew had another appointment with the allergist today. It was pretty uneventful. I was hoping for all kinds of new foods he could have, lot's of  good news....instead it was just blah. There was no bad news....just basically things staying the same. I started giving him foods with wheat flour in them last week. For those who don't know Drew cannot have wheat, egg, milk, soy, or beef until he's 1, as a precaution. He is allowed to have milk as long as it's halfway down on the ingredient list. That has stayed the same....and they said since I've already been giving him some wheat flour, to continue with that. But as far as eggs, no go. He goes back 3 days before he turns 1. His bday is March 17, so we don't have too much longer. But, my boy is hungry!! :) So no great news, but no bad news. I'll take it.


From the title of my blog, I'm sure you've figured out that my hubs is a Firefighter. He's gone a lot. Last night he had training so he's gone till about 10 pm. Just me and my boys hanging out.....and today he's on his shift (24 hours) so just me and my babes again! Last night they were cracking me up in the tub! When Cole isn't slamming Drew down, and flipping him over like an ultimate fighter, they're cute! :)

Our house is more than a circus at night. It was one thing when Drew was just waking up. But, now Cole is waking up EVERY. SINGLE. NIGHT and comes in our room between 3 and 4 am. Homie don't play that. I do not want him in our room. I know that may sound harsh, but I just don't want that starting. He slept with us until he was 10 months old and transitioned fine....and I thought whew, I'm lucky! Because I thought he would not do well with that....so I don't want to start now ya know? So now not only am I STILL getting up 3 million and four times a night with my 10 MONTH OLD, but now my almost 4 YEAR OLD as well. EFFFFF!!!!! What the heck did I do to deserve this? lol. I've even started letting Drew "cry it out" at night, because I'm just so over it....but of course after a half hour of him on and off crying, I finally give in....because I'm not getting to sleep listening to him cry anyway!

More Randomness:
Today when I got home from Drew's appointment....I laid my keys on top of the diaper bag in the front seat...got out and got Drew out of the back seat. Closed his door and walked around the Tahoe to get the bag AND the keys. As I'm walking around....the horn beeps....you know what that means? THE DOORS ARE LOCKED! we only have one set of keys because the dealership we bought it at, was a PITA......anyway...my hubs is at work for 24 hours, and now my keys are locked in the tahoe in our garage, along with the diaper bag, and my purse...and most importantly an unsweet tea from McDonalds that I had just gotten! AHHH.

On the Weight Loss Stuff:
I am getting nowhere! I eat a ton better, I do my treadmill 3 or more times a week...but still super slow....and yet I'm still just playing around with these 3 pounds. up and down between these 3 pounds....not really going anywhere, or seeing results, and that is super frustrating! I can't hit a plateau this soon....I've only lost roughly 8-10 pounds and thursday will be my 4 week mark. I'm getting ticked off!!!! I'm on WW but recently just started using my fitness pal again, counting calories also. I thought maybe just counting calories would speed things up, we'll see. 

#OOTD funnies

So my friend Kristen and I both follow all these blogs....where everyone posts OOTD pics. Outfit of the day for those of you who don't know, lol. So yesterday as a joke, I sent her a pic of my OOTD and listed where I bought everything....just like all the others do. She sent one back. This morning, I did another one....she sent one back. Now it's kind of  creepy a joke to us.....mainly because we're the only ones looking at them, and I work in my basement, so my outfits are less than impressive! But the last 2 days I've gotten a kick out of it! You know I'm just jealous that I'm not a "big blogger" that has tons of people checking my instagram all day to see my OOTD! Hey, a girl can dream.

Anywho...this was my sweet #OOTD pic I sent to Kristen

Now if you are someone who posts pics like this everyday...I'm not "hatin" on you at all! I'm one of those people who looks for these pics everyday. It was just a joke with us....because well....look at my outfit, lol. I dream of a big blog with thousands of followers waiting to see my every move on fb and instagram....but...since I don't have a seperate instagram or fb for my blog...that's not gonna happen!

Moving on....
Last week, I wanted pop like woah! I had a couple....and felt awful every time I did. I just feel blah after. So again my friend Kristen told me to try this....

It's actually not too bad! I'll drink it till the 12 pack is gone at least! lol. Since today is MLK day....the kids are outta school....so I have a ton of school agers I normally don't have! You think caring for little kids is rough....no. Caring for five 7 year olds is quite an ordeal! These kids have ran me ragged! I prefer the little ones, lol. Happy Monday Kids!