Non-Scale Victories #2

Linking up again today for NSV's #2!

My husband and my oldest son have gotten milkshakes twice this week, and I didn't get one either time! I wanted it....I wanted it bad!! But, I didn't get one! :)


Still doing my treadmill, but also still need to step up the pace and get a little more of a burn out of my workout.

Staying optimistic about this scale stuff. I mean this has to start working sometime right? I have been looking into new ways to start dropping the pounds! (Cleanses, new exercises, stuff like that)

My cart at the grocery store this past weekend, looked way healthier than it ever has in the past!

Although I'm still frustrated that the scale isn't really going anywhere except up and down with the same three pounds....I'm proud of myself for changing bad habits, and for trying to become healthier.
                                      
I'm not sure why the scale isn't moving....and I'll tell ya what...it is a HARD thing to deal with! I've been at this for 5 weeks now. I eat under 1280 calories a day....I drink water (not enough, I'm sure)....and the scale still isn't changing. I have never had this problem before. I will be 30 in July....and I've had 2 babies now, but I don't think these are good enough excuses! I think the Non-scale vicotories are a great thing to recognize, because it gives me the strength to keep going. There are so many thing going through my head when I'm on the treadmill. So many things I want to accomplish, and so many regrets about what I've let happen to my body. It's all hard to swallow. How did I get to the point that I need to lose about 60 pounds to get back to where I'm happy with how I look. How did I not have enough respect for myself to change it, before it got out of control? I struggle with these things on a daily basis. But I just have to keep going!
                                           
I'm thankful to have others who see the importance of motivating others to see their success in all aspects, not just a number on a scale! That is so important....for our overall sanity! haha. Hopefully next week....I'll be able to say I've dropped something beyond these 3 pounds that keep coming and going....but if I don't.....we'll keep working for the next week, right? 
Happy Thursday blog world....we've almost made it to the weekend!!! :)

Back to Reality!!

AHHHHH!!! 2 days with no blogging!! I've missed the blog world! No, I'm not joking.....I really did! I have what looks to be about 3 hours of reading blogs to catch up with! LoL!! Good thing I don't have many kiddos today! haha

 Had to take Drew to the ER at 1am on Sunday with a 104.4 fever! YIKES! Scared this mommy! He was tested for both influenza A and B....both were negative! Hallelujah....but he does have a virus, that you guessed it.....just has to run its course. Ugh. So it has been a rough 2 days! Closed my daycare on Monday....then had someone cover for me yesterday.....and now finally back to reality today. I'm a creature of habit for sure. I like routine.....and the past 2 days we have had NO ROUTINE! Drew was not sleeping at all......finally last night we all got some sleep. Much needed....and I want MORE! But, I'm so thankful he's starting to feel a little better! Hate it when my babies are sick!!! :(

Yesterday it was 60 degrees here in good ole Ohio, today it's supposed to be 50....and guess what! tomorrow, low 30's! Awesome. I just love this weather! No wonder everybody and their dog is sick!!

Since I haven't blogged in 2 days, I have a bunch of randomness to cover! Does anyone watch Dallas?? I am so obsessed! I remember after season 1, I couldn't wait until January when it came back! and guess what....It's Baaaaaack! Yessssss! Season premiere was so good! I can't wait till Monday! LoL I love me some John Ross Ewing! I'm not hatin those suits he wears to the office everyday! I definitely believe that there is in fact "something about a truck" but I'm perfectly ok with my country boy driving a corvette. It works for him!

I may need a life....but hey....it's the only show I watch these days that's NOT reality. I'm behind on all my reality shows except Teen Mom. Am I the only 29 year old who still watches teen mom? Yes? well that's ok. What's life without some good old disfunction, right?
Happy Wednesday kids! I'm excited that this is my first day of "work" and that it's already wednesday. Pretty good deal there!


BTW: I've jumped on the Keek bandwagon..... kristenporter161   I really need to learn how to put those fancy icons up! lol

What You Don't See.....

FRIDAY! Yesssssssss! I'm ready to not set the alarm....and pretend that my children won't have me up 47 times during the night!  While getting ready this morning...(.and by getting ready I mean putting my hair in a pony tail, and wearing sweats today! Because it's friday, and I. DON'T. CARE.) Anyway....I noticed how bad my hair is looking after only 3 weeks! I'm a grey mess. I've had grey hair since I was 17! Sad huh. Now I highlight it blonde again....but after we color the roots! I haven't highlighted since Dec. 7....but just did the roots a few weeks ago! So now I'm looking a hot mess! And if you don't believe me........

It's pretty sad kids! I'm lookin rough! Good thing I'm trapped working in the basement with kiddos all day! They don't judge! haha. I'm gonna need some serious TLC on that mop this weekend! Yikes!

I received the sweetest most untrue email ever yesterday! It was soooo nice....yet couldn't be further from the truth. So I thought, if this is the image I'm portraying....I need to be honest with people who are reading.  Someone actually told me in an email "You look great, you don't need to lose weight" Ohhhhh how this made me laugh. But, it also made me think! I gotta be real. I only post selfies from the neck up for a reason! So I'm just gonna lay it all out there today. This is for my reader who thought I didn't need to lose weight! I'm flattered....but you must now find out the truth! lol

 

Here is the ugly truth my friend! My biggest problem area (not the only problem area) is the middle. My gigantic stomach after 2 babies, and just eating crap, and not moving! This is what happens! Don't let it happen to you lol. Friends don't let friends, get this fat! lol. I cannot believe I'm letting the world see this...but there ya have it. I do in fact....HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT, and a lot of it.My goal to start is 60 pounds. Then we'll see how I look at that point, and decide if I need to lose more. So thank you thank you thank you for your sweet email.....but feast your eyes on that mess! In this pic I'm wearing my husbands sweat pants, and shirt. I no longer have any mid-section....it's all just a big blob. It's humiliating, sad, depressing, and a million other things all rolled into one! I'm working on changing it....but unfortunately when you let it get this bad it takes time! So this is what's hiding in the rest of the selfies, that you don't normally get to see! lol.   I hide from the camera as much as I can. I barely have any pictures with my kids....we got family pictures taken in december and I didn't buy a single one of them because I looked so awful. No one wants to feel like that. 

well....isn't this post just full of sunshine, and rainbows! On a happier note, it's friday!!!! Have a great weekend!!! :)

Non-Scale Victories Linkup

Today, I'm linking up to talk about some NSV's! "Non-scale Victories" Such a great idea! I'm frustrated with the scale, however I have changed my life a ton!



                                         




I've been on WW for the past 4 weeks, but this week I started using my fitness pal to count calroies as well. I've stayed under my daily calorie intake all week!

I've started drinking DIET Dr. Pepper. Pepsi and Wild Cherry Pepsi are my loves....but I got tired of giving up 5 pts or 150 calories for it! So I had heard Diet Dr. Pepper wasn't too bad....and it's not. So for now that fills the void of wanting pop and 0pts/calories. Score.

I've done my treadmill religiously for the past 2 weeks.....every time with both of my kids in the room...excpet once! I'm still slow, but I'm moving! I actually look forward to it now. Weird. lol

I'm now consious of everything I put in my mouth!

I'm not eating when I'm bored

I've learned that "feel good food" in fact, does NOT make you feel good

Although I still feel scared and overwhelmed with the amount I want to lose.....I don't feel as defeated about never being able to do it.

I would rather feel/look good than eat crap that is gone in 10 minutes!

I still don't enjoy the scale....it's not my favorite place to be of course.....but I no longer avoid it. I have faced a harsh reality...and have been making changes in my life. That's something. Even if the scale isn't really moving at the pace I'd like. The weight has to start coming off, right?!?! Please say yes.

I'm realizing that while yes, my main job is to be a mom.....I  have to spend some time on myself...and find that person I used to be again.

I've learned that excuses get you nowhere, except fatter lol

I've noticed little changes in my body. Ex: my wedding rings are falling off!

My arms are getting less puffu/fat

I'm learning just how important exercise is, and how good it can make you feel

When I actually do start seeing changes in that scale....I'm sure that will give me even more motivation! BRING IT!

Makeup Hoarder

I am a makeup lover to say the least! I have enough for my own cosmetics store....seriously. Most of it is OLD too. So I guess that would make me a "Makeup Hoarder"  I don't buy expensive makeup. All my stuff comes from walmart. Mainly because, I never know if I'm going to like it.  Recently, I learned that makeup expires! Was I the only one who didn't know this?!?! So this weekend, it's time to do a major clean out. I have makeup from 10 years ago or more! We're talking Mary Kate and Ashley eye shadows, and lip glosses! Don't judge!

I have finally found a mascara that I love.....Loreal Beauty Tubes....so I guess that means I can throw the other 15 tubes that I have away? (No Joke, I have at least 15 others right at this moment) and some of them are probably more than 3 years old.

 

Seriously, go buy this stuff. It rocks, and I'm very picky about mascara! Wouldn't it be cool if I got paid to say that by Loreal? LoL. A girl can dream. 

I have yet to find a foundation that I can't live without. I used to use cover girl but I feel like it makes me look like a hooker, I can't find the right color.....so I went to loreal, I bought too light and it washes me out. This stuff isn't cheap people! and you can't return it, so I have a ton that I just can't use. So I bought the cheapest NYC stuff I could find....$2.99! So that has to be good for your face right?  lol But I actually like the color. I do notice that it feels really heavy on my face after using Loreal for a while. I've recently started using a primer too. Not everyday but when we actually go places on the weekend, and I don't wanna look all "yeah I work in the basement all week-ish"

What I'm trying to get at here is....what kind of foundation do you use? I want something I can get at the drug store....I'm not all about having to order things, or go to the makeup counter at the mall for. That just doesn't work in my life. Is there a way to test colors, that I don't know about? I'm sick of wasting money on foundation that I get home to find it's too light or too dark. (most of the time too light)


I love lipstick as well. I think lipstick finishes the look! But, again I buy cheap lipstick. The stuff that comes off in 20 mins. Hate that. What lipstick do you buy? Does it last? I have tried that 24 hour stuff....I had one that worked well, but it was a little dark....and that stuff definitely stayed on 24 hours! if you messed up putting it on....better like looking like a clown for the next 24 hours because that stuff was NOT. COMING. OFF. I've played around with a few....but what is the best drug store brand to go with that will last? 

I am thinking about trying ipsy after seeing what Meredith posted the other day. That may give me a way to branch out with more expensive products that I normally wouldn't buy...and see the difference. But what if I actually like them?!?! TROUBLE.

What's your favorite foundation, and lipstick? Help!
I couldn't resist.....

Happy Hump Day!

A Few Updates

Drew had another appointment with the allergist today. It was pretty uneventful. I was hoping for all kinds of new foods he could have, lot's of  good news....instead it was just blah. There was no bad news....just basically things staying the same. I started giving him foods with wheat flour in them last week. For those who don't know Drew cannot have wheat, egg, milk, soy, or beef until he's 1, as a precaution. He is allowed to have milk as long as it's halfway down on the ingredient list. That has stayed the same....and they said since I've already been giving him some wheat flour, to continue with that. But as far as eggs, no go. He goes back 3 days before he turns 1. His bday is March 17, so we don't have too much longer. But, my boy is hungry!! :) So no great news, but no bad news. I'll take it.


From the title of my blog, I'm sure you've figured out that my hubs is a Firefighter. He's gone a lot. Last night he had training so he's gone till about 10 pm. Just me and my boys hanging out.....and today he's on his shift (24 hours) so just me and my babes again! Last night they were cracking me up in the tub! When Cole isn't slamming Drew down, and flipping him over like an ultimate fighter, they're cute! :)

Our house is more than a circus at night. It was one thing when Drew was just waking up. But, now Cole is waking up EVERY. SINGLE. NIGHT and comes in our room between 3 and 4 am. Homie don't play that. I do not want him in our room. I know that may sound harsh, but I just don't want that starting. He slept with us until he was 10 months old and transitioned fine....and I thought whew, I'm lucky! Because I thought he would not do well with that....so I don't want to start now ya know? So now not only am I STILL getting up 3 million and four times a night with my 10 MONTH OLD, but now my almost 4 YEAR OLD as well. EFFFFF!!!!! What the heck did I do to deserve this? lol. I've even started letting Drew "cry it out" at night, because I'm just so over it....but of course after a half hour of him on and off crying, I finally give in....because I'm not getting to sleep listening to him cry anyway!

More Randomness:
Today when I got home from Drew's appointment....I laid my keys on top of the diaper bag in the front seat...got out and got Drew out of the back seat. Closed his door and walked around the Tahoe to get the bag AND the keys. As I'm walking around....the horn beeps....you know what that means? THE DOORS ARE LOCKED! we only have one set of keys because the dealership we bought it at, was a PITA......anyway...my hubs is at work for 24 hours, and now my keys are locked in the tahoe in our garage, along with the diaper bag, and my purse...and most importantly an unsweet tea from McDonalds that I had just gotten! AHHH.

On the Weight Loss Stuff:
I am getting nowhere! I eat a ton better, I do my treadmill 3 or more times a week...but still super slow....and yet I'm still just playing around with these 3 pounds. up and down between these 3 pounds....not really going anywhere, or seeing results, and that is super frustrating! I can't hit a plateau this soon....I've only lost roughly 8-10 pounds and thursday will be my 4 week mark. I'm getting ticked off!!!! I'm on WW but recently just started using my fitness pal again, counting calories also. I thought maybe just counting calories would speed things up, we'll see. 

#OOTD funnies

So my friend Kristen and I both follow all these blogs....where everyone posts OOTD pics. Outfit of the day for those of you who don't know, lol. So yesterday as a joke, I sent her a pic of my OOTD and listed where I bought everything....just like all the others do. She sent one back. This morning, I did another one....she sent one back. Now it's kind of  creepy a joke to us.....mainly because we're the only ones looking at them, and I work in my basement, so my outfits are less than impressive! But the last 2 days I've gotten a kick out of it! You know I'm just jealous that I'm not a "big blogger" that has tons of people checking my instagram all day to see my OOTD! Hey, a girl can dream.

Anywho...this was my sweet #OOTD pic I sent to Kristen

Now if you are someone who posts pics like this everyday...I'm not "hatin" on you at all! I'm one of those people who looks for these pics everyday. It was just a joke with us....because well....look at my outfit, lol. I dream of a big blog with thousands of followers waiting to see my every move on fb and instagram....but...since I don't have a seperate instagram or fb for my blog...that's not gonna happen!

Moving on....
Last week, I wanted pop like woah! I had a couple....and felt awful every time I did. I just feel blah after. So again my friend Kristen told me to try this....

It's actually not too bad! I'll drink it till the 12 pack is gone at least! lol. Since today is MLK day....the kids are outta school....so I have a ton of school agers I normally don't have! You think caring for little kids is rough....no. Caring for five 7 year olds is quite an ordeal! These kids have ran me ragged! I prefer the little ones, lol. Happy Monday Kids!

So Random....

I've mentioned that  I have started crawling running/walking on the treadmill again after a 5 year vacation!

Well I've only been able to do 2.5 miles so far, and I'm gonna be honest when I say my butt is kicked after that! My face is all red, and I'm sweating like a whore in church! I know that's not a very nice saying but you get the idea! I'm one of those people who never takes their wedding ring off. Well apparently when you're sweating like no other.....and you have your rings on.....and continue this for about 4 days, this happens......

and it FREAKING HURTS!!!!!!!!!!!!! So 2 lessons from this! 1. Don't wait 5 years and 2 babies to move your body! You'll be 50 pounds heavier, and sweat like a pig....and get fat girl boo boos! 2. Take your rings off before you run.

In other news: I've been on this kick about my house.We built it almost 5 years ago, and I still feel like the upstairs isn't "Done" and it drives me crazy. One of the things I wanted to do was to frame our master bath with a curtain. I thought it looked too bare up there. So my hubs hung a curtain for me yesterday! I gotta say....I'm diggin it!

Not too shabby. Thank you Pinterest! It feels all "spa like" in there now! Now I want to just stay in that room, lol.
Today in my daycare we were making snowmen. I gave the directions "make a face for your snowman" and my little Cole (3.5) did this.....

I'm so proud of him! I think I'm so excited because he usually doesn't take any interest in art....at least for me. His preschool teacher says he does well, but for me....nothin. And when he's with me, he tends not to follow the directions the other kids follow. He is usually up and running around, because well I'm the mom and he doesn't feel he needs to listen to me! ugh. Anyway....today he did....and I'm super proud of him! I was so impressed by this.....for all the reasons I just mentioned. Maybe he's taking a new interest, or maybe he's growing up....and learning that he needs to follow directions, even from mom? Either way....I like it! :)

Have a great weekend!!

10 Months, and Weightloss

Today my little Drew is 10 months old! I can't believe it! Time seems to fly even faster with the second baby! I have started planning his birthday party! He was born on St. Patrick's Day, so guess what the theme of the party is! :) I figured I would get the St. Patty's Day theme outta my head on the first birthday, because for this one...let's face it...he's not going to care :) We celebrated his 10 month bday by taking him to his ENT follow up! I'm happy to report that his hearing was perfect(always has been) No fluid in either ear, and no infection! YAY!!!! this is such a big deal for us! I'm super excited that everything went well for him today.


Today, this is kinda how I'm feeling:

I really just want to eat my weight in junk food today! Yikes, that would be a lot of freaking junk food! I crawled ran on the treadmill for the 3rd time this week. IT. HURT. My shins were burning....all the muscles in my lower legs, and clear to my feet were burning! I went even slower than usual because I had to slow down to a snails pace about 45 times! It was no fun! I pushed through with the help of this guy....

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I'm all about my old school faves when trying to push through on the treadmill.....but I'm a country girl at heart....so I usually rely on Jason, Blake, Dierks, Eric, Kip, Justin, Luke and Florida Georgia Line to get me through :)Being able to listen to my tunes, is totally what makes me WANT to go run. Whatever gets me moving, right?!

To all of you ladies who are on a weight loss journey like me....how do you get past the feeling of looking in the mirror and saying "yep, still fat" or do you even have that feeling? I know I'm moving in the right direction....but I am just so disgusted with myself! I know, I should have had this feeling while gaining this weight but now I just can't stand it. I struggle everyday with it....now I've become obsessed with it! I have no patience, and I'm more embarrassed now more than ever, about letting this happen! It's like all of the sudden, I'm aware I'm fat? Or maybe my mind has just finally accepted it. I don't know what it is, but I am so ready to change my life! I wanna be skinny more than I wanna eat!

This morning my hubs and I were talking....and I said "if it weren't for junk food, I'd be skinny" meaning....I don't eat processed foods, I eat lean met, I don't like butter, ....ya know stuff like that. He said to me "the majority of  your problem is activity. You think you do a lot during the day, but you don't. You are sitting most of the day. It's just the nature of your job" I wanted to cry and smack him all at the same time. I was embarrassed, and sad, and just kinda humiliated all together. He's right, but I guess I'm having a lot of reality checks these past few weeks. I'm in two rooms all day....so there aren't many places for me to walk. I am up to change diapers, make lunch, and snacks, clean up....but the majority of the day, I'm sitting on the floor with the kids, or sitting at the desk. I need to think of ways to become more active during the day. I don't know why it took me this long to get so embarrassed about what I've become! I guess when you're at your lowest point, the good news is, the only direction left to go is up! I will go drown myself in self-pity now! LOL

SO WHAT-Wednesday

I'm doing "So What Wednesday" .....why? because Holly is and I have to do everything she does! lol.


So what, if I would rather eat the cookies my SIL made us, than to eat a real breakfast!

So what, if I've been weighing myself too much...and want to jump off a cliff every time I see something I don't like on that scale! PS you cannot weigh yourself every 2 days...it will drive you freaking crazy!

So what, if my son goes from a Batman costume, to Robin, and then Superman all within 10 minutes!

So what, that I put on the same shirt this morning that I wore to dinner with my hubs family last night!

So what, if my pace on the treadmill this week has been very close to actually standing still  :/

So what, if I look at everyone elses blog each day, and think "I really need to sponser some of my faves" but never get around to actually doing it!

So what, if I already can't wait till friday!

So what, if I feel the need to post a pic of every song I'm listening to during my workout!

So what, if my bedroom is currently the messiest room in my house!

So what, if I'm embarased for my mom to go upstairs in my house because she'll see my room! Yes, I'm 29 and afraid of my Mom.

Which brings me to my next so what! So what, if I'm 29 and afraid of my Mom!

So what, if my 10 month old ( tomorrow!) spits out baby food, because he wants some real FOOD! Poor kid! (not allowed to have lots of stuff till he's 1, due to possible allergies)

So what, if my to do list is consuming my every thought these days!

So what, that even though this isn't my first baby...my heart melts each time Drew says "Mama" it's new, and I love it! :)

It's an Ecard Kinda Day!

I worked out again last night! 2 nights in a row with both kids, ALONE! Good news is, I got it done...bad news is....Cole trashed the room in the process! My treadmill is in our 4th bedroom...that serves as ANOTHER toy room, treadmill room, spare bedroom, and my wrapping paper, craft, everything I don't have room for anywhere else, room. So while on the treadmill Cole decided to unroll a roll of wrapping paper, put matchbox cars on the treadmill behind me and watch them fly off, destroy the train track on his train table, and throw it all on the floor! Really??? He was a hot mess All. Day. Long. yesterday. Not sure what that was about, but I didn't like it! But I still look forward to running, just so I can rock out!

I'm almost at my 3 week mark for Weight Watchers, and I've lost 8 pounds. I think that's good, but I want MORE! Damn all this weight I put on!What the heck was I doing when I started gaining all this? How did I not stop myself? I must have checked out for the past 2 years! Now I'm paying for it fo sho! Tonight we are eating dinner with my brother-in-law and sister-in-law and nephews. My SIL works at a bakery and every year makes us an insane amount of delicious cookies. Well tonight is cookie night...and I'm already thinking about those darn things! UGH! I may have to have my hubs hide them, like he's doing his reeses! Which I'm found twice already btw....by accident! He called me, and I quote "A freaking bloodhound" nice huh? But I wasn't looking for them....he hid them in his tool bench and I was looking for a screwdriver! lol. But I didn't eat any...good job me! 

I'm in an ecard kinda mood today, so I apologize up front. There are just some that were taking the words right out of my mouth this morning!

On a random note....do you have those friends on fb that you are strictly friends with for entertainment? Everything they post drives you freaking nuts, yet you won't hide them, or de-friend them...because well you get a kick out of them? I know that's not the way to be....but I have about 4 of those friends lol. I just can't delete them, because I will be left wondering what's going on with them each day! I may have a problem! :) 2 of these fb friends are family...so that makes it ok that I just said this, right?

Tonight will be filled with restaurant food and cookies! I am gonna hold strong, and make healthy choices....keeping my eye on fitting my fat self into a bathing suit in june! Yikes!!

Impatience is NOT a virtue!

Mondays....ugh! Mondays are rough for us. My hubs worked 24 hours yesterday, and will get home at 7:30 am today...and be at another job by 8:30am....and not back  home till 10 pm tonight. That's a long 2 days for me and the kiddos! So, I dislike Mondays...a lot.

This whole weigh tloss journey has being "weighing" on my mind this weekend. See what I did there? I'm funny :) Anyway....I am the most impatient person in this world! And although I know I didn't gain this weight over night, I feel like I should lose it over night! I've said before when I get something in my head, I want it done yesterday! Well here we are. I am losing, I'm just not losing FAST, like we all want right? So it then becomes a mind game. Am I doing what I should, I could have done better here, I need to change this. And of course the emotions that come with it, that make me want to just EAT!

I didn't make the greatest choices with food this weekend, but I didn't eat a ton. Does that make any sense? I made poor choices, some of the time, but didn't stuff myself? I still lost a pound however from saturday to sunday. Figure that one out! lol I know that you can fluctuate 1-3 pounds daily...so that's probably what happened.

I was feeling a little guilty from the choices I made, so I decided...I would get on the treadmill. I did...and I was super slow...but I did it. All with a screaming baby by my side! I ended up only getting 20 min in because Drew decided at about the 10 min mark, he was would start whaling and NOT. STOP.

It's hard to take a picture that's not blurry when you're running...even as slow as I was running! I wanted to keep going...for some reason I don't get into a good groove until about 15 minutes in! I was rocking out to some good tunes! My favorite part of the run of course!

Nothing like a little old school Nelly, to get you moving! It was definitely getting hot in here!...my butt is definitely big, lol. Although I really love Nelly.....the song that made me step it up a notch was this.

Loooooove me some Dierks! Cole loves this song too. :) So I'm trying not to lose hope. That number that I want to achieve really freaks me out! I want to be down 50 pounds by June. I really hope I can do it. Everyday, is a struggle with my head...that I actually can achieve this goal. It's a long road...I'm determined...but impatient. It takes hard work I know, I just hope I have what it takes to Keep. Going. Other than blog friends, I do have about 5 or 6 friends that know I'm on WW. With them knowing, I suddenly feel more pressure to succeed! Maybe that's a good thing! It will make me more accountable...because these friends will expect to see results! That could work for me! ....So here we go...another week on WW, let's see what happens!

Allergy Baby

I have big news blog friends. Yesterday......I made a BUTTON! Yep, lil ole me, did it all by myself....well with following all the steps of Tutorial Tuesday!  I gotta give a shout out to  Hubby Jack That guy is a good teacher...if he can teach me to do something like that, seriously ANYONE can do it! lol Ok Holly.....don't hurt me....I only heart your husband for his tutorials! :) My button is actually kinda cute if I do say so myself! :)

For those of you Mommies out there...who have more than one baby, do you find yourself comparing the two kids? Like, Cole walked at 10 months old.....Drew will be 10 months next week, and isn't anywhere near walking....just started pulling himself up two weeks ago. I find it hard not to compare things like this. Drew weighs 25 pounds, he's bigger than Cole was at this age...so I'm sure thats the trouble for Mr. Drew. He's got a lot of weight to move around! He's on track with everything....crawls, stands up, jabbers, .....I don't think he's delayed by any means....I just can't help but think...wow Cole was walking at this age! Crazy.

As many of you know, Drew has asthma, and eczema. Both are under control....but with asthma babies apparently comes food allergies. I was an asthma baby....didn't have food allergies. But, anywho.....his allergist wants him to stay away from milk, eggs, wheat, soy, beef until age 1! AHHH Seriously. Try to transition a baby from baby food to table food, and not let him have eggs, or milk. Even all the gerber foods contain whole wheat flour....and the stage 3 baby foods are a waste of my time and money now containing egg noodles, beef, and milk. Feeding this guy has become quite a challenge! He goes to the allergist in two weeks, and I'm hoping....that they will speed up this process of the RAST test.....to see if he is actually allergic to any of this stuff! I understand being cautious, but do we need to be crazy about this? I mean, he can't even have anything with egg cooked in it. NOTHING!  This of course means no pasta, because pasta has egg and milk in it! I'm learning a lot about food labels, I'll tell ya that! I've never read so many labels in my life! We are to the point that I spend an hour on the gerber website before even going to the grocery store, to save time.....so that I know what I can buy, and what I can't! It's getting outta control!

The allergist says she thinks he will NOT be allergic to milk since he was on milk based formula in the begining, and did fine. He's also already had some things with milk in it...because at that point...I didn't know "Whey" means milk! Yeah, dumb Mom I suppose! I know NOW! but, he did fine with it. So I could probably take the chance and start giving him some of these things...but the DR doesn't want him having it yet for a reason, so I listen. Ho hum.

Basically, he eats fruits, and veggies....and none of the good stuff, like spaghetti, or mac and cheese! Booo!!! I feel bad for the little guy! I hoooooope we can get some good news/answers on the 22 when we go back to the allergist!

On a happy note....the past two nights, Drew has slept great! I'm excited but fear I may have just jinxed myself by saying this out loud! SSshhh!!!

Drew has started standing up on everything! :)

This is in our daycare....remember we're in the basement, lol....He was supposed to be laying down for a nap!

Ohhh the life of a boy mom! Wouldn't have it any other way!

 TGIF! Have a great weekend!

Super Bowl Recipe Link-up

Today, I'm doing Amy's super bowl recipe link up....but first a little something about good ole' Weight Watchers. Today is my 2 week mark. I haven't gotten on the scale in a week, because I don't "Feel" like I'm losing anything. I have felt really huge for about 4 days. I've been eating like I'm supposed to, so I'm not sure why I'm feeling this way. So I'm holding off on the scale until I feel "better". That feeling is bringing me down a little. I'm the type that needs results to keep going....I know it HAS to be working because I've cleaned up so much crap in my diet, but I'm just not feeling it the past couple of days. So I'm going to increase the water today, and hopefully by the weekend, I'll be feeling a little better! Any of my WW friends ever just feel blah...like it's not working anymore? Like I said....I KNOW something has to be working because I've made some serious changes up in here! lol. I'm noticing certain areas are lookin a little better...but I just feel 9 months pregnant in the belly area  for about the past 4 days! YIKES! (No, I'm not, I fixed that problem permanently, lol)  Today is my Dad's birthday and we are going out for dinner....and with a birthday comes CAKE! I haven't decided if I'm going to save points for the cake.....or pass on the cake.....we'll see how the day goes! :)

OK recipe time!

Since I'm on Weight Watchers....how fitting to do a WW recipe right?

Tomato Mini Pizzas:
Makes 4 Servings

What you'll need:
2 large pocketless pitas
2 large plum tomatoes, thinly sliced
1/4 teaspoon salt
2 tbsp chopped basil
2 teaspoons olive oil
2 garlic cloves, minced
1/3 cup shredded part-skim mozzarella cheese

1. Preheat over to 400. Spray a large non-stick baking sheet with cooking spray
Place pitas on baking sheet

2. In a small bowl, mix the tomatoes, and salt; stir in the basil, oil, and garlic. Top the pitas with the tomato mixture, drizzling any liquid in the bowl over the toppings. Bake until the tomatoes are hot and softened, about 8 mins. Sprinkle  with the cheese; bake until the cheese is melted, about 3 mins longer. Cut the pitas in half before serving.

Per serving: 131 cals, 4 g total fat, 1 g saturated fat, 4 mg choloesterol, 346 mg sodium, 18 g total carbs, 1 g dietary fiber, 6 g protein, 118 mg calcium. Points per serving 3 

This is obviously not an original recipe from me! It's out of  The New Complete Cookbook by Weight Watchers. That is their pic of the pizza as well, lol. I'm so creative, right?

Ohhh Honey Boo Boo

Do any of you watch Honey Boo Boo? It's ok to admit it, just this once.
It's no secret that I like "Here Comes Honey Boo Boo".....well I wouldn't say that I like it....I would say it's more like I watch in amazement. It's just so messed up, it's funny. Understand? Anyway...I was a day late watching the season premiere. I finally watched it last night. OH EMM GEEE......It was awful for even me! I think it got worse from last season! At one point, I thought....I'll turn it off....but do you think I did? NOPE. Kept watching.....and kept getting more disgusted!

It was so bad....that I can't stop thinking about it! It's so bad that I have to post all my thoughts about it...which in turn puts me pretty close to the same level as the rest of them!

At one point, while in a corn maze....."Mama" went into the corn to pee! Yikes! Poor baby Kaitlyn with 3 thumbs was being dragged around the corn maze in the beating down sun with nothing on her head...that part was driving me nuts! They just lug that poor thing around! And how do they all fit in that truck? There is what 7 of them plus a carseat? How are they all riding everywhere together?! And now to make it even better...."Sugar Bear" is in a wheel chair due to a 4-wheeler accident. THEN......"Pumpkin" gets hit in the face with car keys, and has a bleeding eye on the inside and out????? man that must have been some toss of the keys!

"Mama" apparently has a fear of mayonnaise. "Pumpkin" then says...I don't eat mayonnaise because I'm a vegetarian. Hmmm....interesting. And Jessica then starts explaining that "MARRNAISE" doesn't have meat in it. She says "MARRNAISE" about 5 times in one sentence. Really?

Oh and we can't forget the fact that "mama" wants a new look. She goes blonde....and "Sugar Bear" about flips his lid. He then starts discussing biscuits....and if I remember correctly....they all refer to a certain area as a biscuit....which makes me want to throw up just playing that scene back in my head! If I had even an ounce of the confidence "mama" has, I'd be good to go! I mean....if you can feel that good about yourself...when you wear warm-up pants, and tshirts everyday, and have a forklift foot....then heck...I should feel like Miss America!

Ohhhh....and can't forget that "Mama" is "wop-sided" that's "lop-sided" to those of us with a brain. But to them, it's "wop-sided" and "Mama" even picked out a pumpkin that was wop-sided as well. How nice. The highlight was everyone going trick-or-treating. Mama first dressed up like Marilyn Monroe....again Sugar Bear went in heat.....and that costume was quite a sight! I also found it funny that Anna went trick-or-treating. Honey...you have a child now..it's time to hang up the trick-or-treat bag!

I could go on and on....but then again...I'm just as disgusted as you are that I just did an entire post about this stupid, messed up, gross show! Ahhh....I must tune into better quality television! But hey, it's back for a second season, so I'm not the only one watching! :)

FOR. THE. LOVE.

I've mentioned multiple times that Drew hates me with his sleeping habits! AHHHH...This baby. He's the sweetest little man, so happy, so perfect....but his sleeping, ugh. Granted the poor baby does have issues....he has had eczema on his entire body since he was 12 weeks old. It's under control now, but he does itch....and the damn mail order pharmacy that we had to switch to (stupid insurance wants everything mail order, if it's a script that you get over and over) hasn't come in....so he hasn't had his antihistamine since dec. 18! (Stuff that helps him, not itch so much) I don't really notice him scratching...but I think that stuff just helps calm him for bedtime. And, then there is his ear issues. He had tubes put in his ears on Dec. 20....yeah he's already had an ear infection since then, and I think he still does. So probably a trip to the ENT tomorrow. So.....I can't really blame him for not sleeping. He's got so much going on. :(

But.....I cannot continue to wake up with him every hour and a half! I'm beat! I'm mean, and I'm ohhhh so tired of it! While sitting in his room at night rocking him...I think of all the people who are sleeping, and their babies are sleeping all night....and I seriously get pissed off! I'm to the point that I just can't take it anymore. He'll be 10 months old on the 17, and I have not slept since this child was born!!!!! It makes my hubs and I fight in the middle of the night because we are both tired....and if we let Drew "cry it out" he then wakes up his brother in the next room, and then we have 2 awake...which is what happened last night!

I don't know what else to do. We have tried EVERYTHING. I feed him more, I make him warm enough....I just don't know. I'm so defeated, and over it!

During the week while we are in my daycare, Drew puts himself to sleep for naps with a bottle...but at bedtime, he falls asleep with us holding him with a bottle....we put him in his crib and he's fine...but when he wakes up, we hold him to feed him. I'm thinking of being a really terrible parent, and just throwing the kid and a bottle and going back to bed! lol. I CANNOT continue like this! AHHHH!!! HELP!

Ok, now a WW update:
I did freaking awesome this weekend if I do say so myself. I was worried about the weekend...because there is more temptation, than there is in my little daycare all week long, with no "outside food" but I did well. I ate what everyone else ate....just less of it....and didn't binge on junk in between! I'm pretty proud of myself, and that's a good feeling! One I haven't had in a really long time! Feels good!

Now if only I could get my kid to sleep at night......I would be "super mom" lol. Happy Monday friends!

So far, so good!

Last Thursday I started Weight Watchers. I have been on it before but never really followed it. So this time...I have high hopes. The first week I lost 5 pounds. I'm sure it was 5 pounds of water because I have done nothing but pee!! good though right? I have stepped up the water drinking though, I always drink it....I'm just now drinking MORE of it. Let me tell ya....IT WORKS! Holly you were right!! Thanks! :)

So with only losing 5 pounds, I feel good. I feel like I can do it for once! I did well my first week, but I could have done better. Now that I know a little bit more of what I'm doing with it....I think I can do bigger and better things in week 2! But isn't it amazing the confidence your first 5 pounds gives you?? Most of you are Moms and understand that anything after 2 babies....stuff starts hanging!

I've had 2 c-sections, and after the second I swear my lower stomach was hanging to my knees! NOT ATTRACTIVE. Well just with 5 pounds and drinking TONS of water....that has tightened up a lot! I'm pleasantly surprised, and thrilled!!! It's obviously not perfect...not sure if it ever will be, but it is amazing the change in only 1 week!

I've noticed subtle changes in other places too...but that freaking giant kangaroo pouch is the biggest so far!

I'm teaching myself not to "binge" eat. I'm finally having a little respect for myself, and not giving in and just saying "well this is the way I'm always gonna be now" Nope. It's not darn it! lol.

I'm tired of feeling lazy. Gotta get moving! I want to feel productive at the end of the day. Not, like I have failed yet again. So that's my lifestyle change I' m working on. I've been cooking better, grocery shopping better, and most importantly, not eating CRAP. I haven't given everything I want up though. If I want something sweet, I have been eating it...but not the whole bag/box or whatever! JUST. ONE. That is a change for me for sure. I would hide food from my hubs so that he wouldnt know I was eating it....I would binge when he wasn't home....lots of little things like that. Now....I think long and hard before doing something stupid that I will regret 15 minutes later!

I'm not by any means saying I'm a changed person after 1 week.....but I will say that the feeling you get when you're seeing results is amazing, and it makes you want MORE. I read all these blogs each day about all you girls doing it, and I'm going to do it too!



I like myself much more at the end of the day when I haven't filled myself with junk for the past 12 hours! :)  Saw this on pinterest today...and I love it! 

Pretty good advice for someone like me!

Have a good weekend!

A-Z Stuff

I thought I would copy off of some of you ladies, and do the all about me thing. I feel like this is myspace! Remember those little questionnaire things?I loved those.  Cute story about one of them. My hubs (wasn't my hubs then) added a question at the bottom that said "Describe your perfect engagement ring" I didn't know he added it...thought it was just part of it. Found out AFTER we got engaged that he added it because he was ring shopping. Cute huh? and pretty clever on his part!

A. Age: 29..yikes!

B. Bed Size: King. which I most of the time get all to myself!

C. Chore you hate: Putting laundry away! Totally don't mind doing it, HATE putting it away!

D. Dog: None! Not a dog person at all

E. Essential start to my day: Those 15 mins I get on my computer alone, before the kids start arriving!

F. Favorite Color: Purple

G. Gold or Silver- Hmmm loaded question! My wedding rings are gold, and the majority of my other stuff is gold....but sometimes I change it up and wear all silver! (Except for the wedding rings of course)

H. Height: 5'3....wish I had a few more inches to work with!

I. Instrument you play: Played the clarinet in elementary school, and junior high....and the piano a little in elementary school

J. Job Title: Mommy, Wife, Maid, Cook (sometimes) and also daycare provider (daycare in my basement)

K. Kids: 2 boys. Cole 3 1/2  Drew 9 1/2 months

L: Kent, Ohio brrr it's 9 degrees today!

M. Married: Married since May 2008

N. Nicknames: Krissy...yuck!

O. Overnights in the hospital: 3 times......2 c sections, and had the flu at 37 wks pregnant with drew...became severely dehydrated and they admitted me! booo

P. Pet Peeve: Grammar, and spelling errors! Using the wrong form of common words! I'm a dork, but it bugs me lol

Q: Quote: No one can make you feel inferior but yourself- Eleanor Roosevelt

R. Righty or Lefty: Lefty!

S. Siblings: None! Just little ole me

T: Time you wake up: For good? or the 3000 times I'm up in the middle of the night with my darn children? for good 6 am

U. University Attended: Kent State University

V. Vegetable I hate: Most, lol. I like corn and green beans that's about it!

W. What makes you run late: Kids! I'm very anal about time. I'm usually very early everywhere I go!

X. X-rays I've had: Mouth, Back....that's it

Y: Yummy food: CHOCOLATE!!!!!

Z: Zoo animal I love: Monkeys!

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year! 2012, had its ups and downs for us. Our highlight was bringing our little Drew into the world! on March 17, 2012....yep St. Patrick's Day! He has completed our little family.....So that of course was the best day of 2012 for me! But, my grandpa passed away in july, and then another very close family friend right before Christmas. Just like with everything I suppose....good times, and bad times. I'm ready for 2013.....I have some plans. I guess you could call them new years resolutions! Basically....they are just life changes. Aside from the obvious...getting all this weight off....I want my house clutter free! Don't we all right? I want it gone....I will binge, purge whatever....just get it outta here!!!

Our New Year's Eve was pretty lame. I've never been a big fan of new years eve, mainly because I NEVER stay up late....so when the whole point of the night is to stay up....I don't do so well with that! I felt like I had been hit by a truck all day that day....we went to my parents for a little while and we were supposed to come home and go to a little get together down the street...but we never made it. Why? Because I fell asleep! LOL. New Years Day?? Yep just as boring! My hubs was working 24 hours so it was just me and my kiddos. LONGEST. DAY. EVER. We were bored to say the least.

Now of course, a few pics of our Rockin New Years Eve.....Riiiiiight :)

At least the kiddos were having fun right? And now just a very teeny, tiny glimpse of one room! That proves I need to live a clutter free life!!!! This is our office....wait this WAS our office. It's right inside the front door, has french doors. Supposed to be pretty right? WRONG. This is the hot mess everyone sees when they come in each day. HATE. IT. The sad part is, we have moved a train table and 6 drawers fulls of trucks  upstairs. We have a 4th bedroom that was supposed to be a guest room. Well I've never had a guest spend the night, and we built this house 4. 5 years ago. So the guest room is going bye-bye....and it's becoming a TOY ROOM. For the love of all that is good and holy, I can not take this crap anymore! lol.  So as soon as my hubs is home for 5 mins.....I wanna get rolling on this OPERATION: TAKE BACK OUR OFFICE. We don't necessarily need an office....we have 2 bookshelves, a desk, filing cabinet, printer. It takes up probably one corner of the whole room....but the fact is I don't like looking at that hot mess of toys right inside the front door!

When I get an idea, I want it done RIGHT NOW, well like yesterday! I have no patience. It needs to happen NOW. My hubs does NOT roll that way. In fact, he's the total opposite of that....so I know this is going to be a job. But, I'm determined!

Happy New Year!