What You Don't See.....

FRIDAY! Yesssssssss! I'm ready to not set the alarm....and pretend that my children won't have me up 47 times during the night!  While getting ready this morning...(.and by getting ready I mean putting my hair in a pony tail, and wearing sweats today! Because it's friday, and I. DON'T. CARE.) Anyway....I noticed how bad my hair is looking after only 3 weeks! I'm a grey mess. I've had grey hair since I was 17! Sad huh. Now I highlight it blonde again....but after we color the roots! I haven't highlighted since Dec. 7....but just did the roots a few weeks ago! So now I'm looking a hot mess! And if you don't believe me........

It's pretty sad kids! I'm lookin rough! Good thing I'm trapped working in the basement with kiddos all day! They don't judge! haha. I'm gonna need some serious TLC on that mop this weekend! Yikes!

I received the sweetest most untrue email ever yesterday! It was soooo nice....yet couldn't be further from the truth. So I thought, if this is the image I'm portraying....I need to be honest with people who are reading.  Someone actually told me in an email "You look great, you don't need to lose weight" Ohhhhh how this made me laugh. But, it also made me think! I gotta be real. I only post selfies from the neck up for a reason! So I'm just gonna lay it all out there today. This is for my reader who thought I didn't need to lose weight! I'm flattered....but you must now find out the truth! lol

 

Here is the ugly truth my friend! My biggest problem area (not the only problem area) is the middle. My gigantic stomach after 2 babies, and just eating crap, and not moving! This is what happens! Don't let it happen to you lol. Friends don't let friends, get this fat! lol. I cannot believe I'm letting the world see this...but there ya have it. I do in fact....HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT, and a lot of it.My goal to start is 60 pounds. Then we'll see how I look at that point, and decide if I need to lose more. So thank you thank you thank you for your sweet email.....but feast your eyes on that mess! In this pic I'm wearing my husbands sweat pants, and shirt. I no longer have any mid-section....it's all just a big blob. It's humiliating, sad, depressing, and a million other things all rolled into one! I'm working on changing it....but unfortunately when you let it get this bad it takes time! So this is what's hiding in the rest of the selfies, that you don't normally get to see! lol.   I hide from the camera as much as I can. I barely have any pictures with my kids....we got family pictures taken in december and I didn't buy a single one of them because I looked so awful. No one wants to feel like that. 

well....isn't this post just full of sunshine, and rainbows! On a happier note, it's friday!!!! Have a great weekend!!! :)